I just scratched my computer.
There are several fairly deep scratches in the top, they look hideous.
They're bugging me a whole bunch and there is nothing I can do about them

I absolutely hate when I destroy my things. I mean it was bound to happen, but still, I hate it, my computer looks like poo now.

Also I wish I didn't have a mac, and that all my software was for mac becuase I feel like some time in the future I will switch back to PC and at that time I will have to repurchase all my software. Though I assume by then there will be new software.

/computer ramblings.

I just realized my cynical sadistic judgmental outlook towards a large percentage of people I know (or don't it doesn't mater to me) is probably why I have developed a social paranoia.

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Being a total bitch is probably the reason why I think everyone hates me.

I'm posting this here becuase I don't know where else to save it

The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has to Offer

prettyyoungthings:

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

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hahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAH

ha.

I just saw the last post made.
I always assume that no one else posts on here. The whole entry made me feel really sad, but then I saw this.

I luld.

Falling Leaves.

In days past while laying in bed after closing my eyes I feel the burden of the day lift from me, but there is always that fleeting feeling that I should have done more.

On so many occasions I find myself surrounded by people whom are not even as old as me and yet I feel shadowed by them and dream of growing to their scale and fear never being capable of such growth.

I don't feel like a small fish in a big pond,

I feel like a small fish lost in the open sea.

A little zombie just came up to my window.
He knocked on my window.

At first it was a little scary, but then he was really sweet so I opened up my window and gave him what he wanted. (it was his license and call phone)

What a cute little zombie.

Sick Show.

My ears are ringing.
The return of CHB, Theset and Mt. Crushmore was beautiful.

I need to sleep now, I still haven't done anything I needed to do this week.
...fuck.


ALSO I'm stoked on how brunch worked out.

Dear Blog,

I saved a dog today, at least I like to think I saved a dog today.
Also I feel like there was more to blog today but I don't know.

I'm very tired, and got nothing done today.

The night got rough after leaving Tanner's. I really need to take some time and do somethings for myself.

Bagels and soup tomorrow morning.

Also here is the scan I meant to put up before.

Cat girls: They give me errections

the patch currently has fur capes for sale, I want to buy one.
Along with that ongina hat I saw today.

I'm too afraid to wear fur though, I'm afraid that I'll offend some one and then they'll throw red paint on me.
I would never buy new fur, but old used fur that some old lady probably wore seems really bad ass, and they're pretty.

knock knock, who's there, interupting cow, interupting cow wh- MOO

"The black represents insecurity"
"Well, how did you feel about this assignment"

don't do it, don't do it, don't think about it, don't do it

...fuck

"it's okay, I mean it's okay to let it out"

...fuck me

I realized today that I'm feeling really insecure about a few things.

Taking pictures is getting really hard.

nero's day at disneyland

i am becoming more and more painfully aware of how i have thrown an entire year of my life for no reason whatsoever.

every day i am becoming more and more of an alcoholic.

I like how much anger is just unleashed on here.


I went back to high school today. It was interesting, and by interesting I really mean boring. I sat in the booth, went to the art room and sat in the art foyer.

I need to buy rechargeable batteries and coffee.
Mainly rechargeables.

fuu.

Dear Miss. Future mcFailure,

MOTHER FUCKER! Stop being a little pussy and DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR SELF.

You'll end up 20 and partying and doing NOTHING ELSE.

Sounds like quite the life right.

You mother fucker, you don't care.

With all the hate and an angry mob,
Richard Ongfiure.

PS. PUT MY BALLS IN YOUR MOUTH you cheap slut.

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idk.



D: LITERACY EFFTEEDOUBLEYEW

holy balls it's a spiderweb.

also holy balls its past midnight. I guess it is bed time. (no class tomorrow)

QCF

Q U I X O T I C C L U S T E R F U C K

Hi,
We're back (at least I am)

With the start of a new school year came the want to bring back QLP.

Welcome to our new erotic erratic post format.
At least for now.

                                                                              
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Other contributors:
QLP needs more activity. Please help out with this blog.

Please.

youoffendme.

*sigh*qlpwhathappendtoyou
thinking of switching over to tumblr

I lied. We're slightly active. Not much more active as before though.

❝There is nothing wrong with post processing, [...]

For the purists here I'll explain why.

When a photographer goes on to post process an image he is also moving onto another level, to point a camera at a subject and to take an image is the easy part of being a photographer.

When though that photographer looks at his image and then goes on to see what he can make of it makes him an artist.

Just because we use the computer and digital imagery does not make us any different to someone that uses paint and canvas, we can just process a little quicker.

we still though have to consider the subject, the tones, the light, the foreground, the background, the focus and a host of other things in which to get to a finished image.

Never be ashamed of your editing skills, embrace then[sic]❞

-Mike Shaw (Morbidthegrim @ DeviantART)

It makes me feel better about my photoshop addiction

W E A R E
C U R R E N T L Y
I N A C T I V E

music doesn't always have to be a spiritual journey of self-discovery, or the pinnacle of artistic ingenuity. Sometimes, just sometimes, a musician likes to entertain his audience.
~ Pinky0926 @ y o u t u b e . c o m

ERRRR MY GOD

Today, I worked 9-4. I took a bus home, did laundry, and sat around.

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"Grad 09... Grad 09..."

today I bought a moleskin and cosmo.
I hope to doodle in the moleskin a whole bunch.
Meghan and I already read the cosmo.

"I want you inside of me" reminds me of the line "I need you so much closer"

when the tequila monster attacks

Dearest Cory,

We saw this animal at the zoo. Weird animals make me think of you, so I took a picture and posted it here so you could see it.

I hope you enjoy it. Its called a spoon bill. We chased it down a path.

I have much to say, but not enough time to say it.

Bermuda is still awesome. I definitely feel like being here is normal again.
Its really fun seing people who haven't seen me since I was 12/13 and seeing how shocked they are at how 'big' I am now.

I'm all sunburnt and peely. I'm going to try and look for some badass shirts still, but nothing.

As well we're going to the aquarium today. It'll be fun.

We saw turtles.

ha ha ha.

The last couple of days have been nothing less than amazing.

I love it here so much, I feel like I never actually left. I've been hanging out with one of my best friends Freya, its been great! Thanks to the internet there hasn't been so much as catching up as just hanging out.

Yesterday the whole lot of us went out on Gene's boat. Adrian loved it. We went swimming off Channel's dock, the water is SO WARM. It's as warm as bath water, I kept thinking when I was going to jump off the boat or go down the water slide that it would be as cold and shocking as Durrance, but really it was perfect. I love the salt water and all the added buoyancy I get, I just have to stop moving and I instantly float. Swimming is so much less effort as well.

Adrian and I had a chance to snorkel around the dock. There really wasn't much, but it was fun to see how excited Adrian got when we saw just boring fish. Hopefully we'll get a chance to see some better stuff some time soon. Though on the boat ride back home we saw a bunch of turtles and even a spotted eagle ray (and regardless of my years of living here it was the first time I had seen one in the wild).

Today I was with Freya while Adrian went out to fish with all the men. It was nice, I had a girly day, I saw a bunch of people who I hadn't seen in ages. I got some food that I haven't had in ages and I bought my first legal bottle of alcohol. Being 18 here feels so much different than being 18 at home.

My friends keep talking about all these parties and their lives, I don't know a bunch of the people they talk about now, but apparently something is going to be held some time soon where everyone gets together, so maybe I'll get to see a bunch of people then and meet them, it'll be great.

I don't have much to say now, I think I've covered most of things, I'll post pictures when I think I have some that are worth posting (my camera batteries died today so I'm currently charging them).

oh hay daur.

We're in Bermuda. Its absolutely beautiful here, I forgot how lovely it was.

When we touched down at the airport I had to stop myself from giggling with glee at the fact that I was back. I love it here so much.

I saw my friend Freya already, she took us to a grocery store because I really wanted to go. Adrian saw the price of milk here (is not cheap).

I also had my 'first' drink last night, and by that I mean legally. Delicious Delicious Delicious, we're going to go buy some Bailey's and ice cream tomorrow, as well as take a mish into town.

We got duty free make-ups in Toronto Airport (which charges for their wireless).

We're staying in a pool house, its lovely, I'll post pictures eventually.

"EVERYTHING HAS AIR CONDITIONING" - Adrian

Well Adrian wants to go outside and poke lizzards, I want to keep typing. I guess I'll post more later.

oh hai dur

Adrian and I are currently in YVR. I'm excited, but this again feels so surreal. I feel like I'm just heading off to Baltimore.

There is a woman walking by, she has a polo shirt on and khakis and has her cream cardigan with its arms draped around her neck.

The sun went away, I don't really know when, but the silhouetted mountains are beautiful.

Adrian and I have to wake up some sleeping lady (with a vinyl leopard print coat), Adrian just made me very afraid of waking her up. I assume she will make a face some what like this:

only with her eyes wider open and pointier teeth.

oh hai there.

If you were to take a look at QLP you would see that the colours have changed. I decided that the blog needed a summer make over and here it is. They're (in my opinion) very Bermuda colours.

I'm going back 'home' tomorrow, well I start off at least. Back to THE MOTHER LAND or I guess I could call it THE OLD COUNTRY (even though it is not technically a country). We shall see how the ghosts of my past materialize.

I will keep QLP and its readers updated during this trip (internet permitting).

I may have to update the colours as well as I get my own pictures up and the colours are not from a composite of memory and crappy google image search results.

Graduation

Hugh Manatee believes that No Homo is the get out of gay for free card.

Little did Hugh manatee realize that you must say No Homo out loud rather than in your head.

I lost my wolf shirt in my room.

Hi there QLP.
It's summer once again. I'm not sure what is happening here. There haven't been many new posts, or anything new to say.

I'm a bundle of nerves, excitement, happiness, anticipation and all those other feelings you don't know are there for sure but they just want to explode.

I like to pretend that every year I don't get excited for my birthday, but really I get extremely excited fro my birthday.

Every year the excitement turns into disappointment, and every year for the last 3 or 4 now the disappointment has increased.

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I got another email from western last night while I was out.
It was a pre-orientation package which included

• A whole bunch of paperwork to fill out
• A whole bunch of stuff to read
• A list of a whole bunch of stuff to buy

I don't even know if I'm going to graduate this year which leaves me not knowing how to fill out these forms. I'll find out in 21 days if I'm graduating.

Graduation is really fucking me up.

This blog has changed alot.
I need to put some scans up soon, but I feel so anxious about alot of things I think its holding back QLP.

There's really nothing like sarcasm coming from 6-9 year olds

/sarcasm

Hugh School Musical

"The 21-year-old actor - who shot to fame in the hit 'Hugh School Musical' films - added his strict upbringing meant he didn't get into the same kind of trouble as his friends growing up."

I kid you not QLP; hugh manatee has made his own musical staring Zac Effron.
(or at least the title in the article says)

Read the article here. "Leonardo DiCaprio's Zac drug warning"

On the drive home I felt lonely and filled with regret, but at the same time filled with optimism, strength, will, hope and love.

I'm making my "To Pack" list for the morning so I don't forget anything, I always over pack.

Also I've quickly fallen in love with my filter.

Back to packing.

my afternoon was extremely surreal.
If it wasn't for my evening I would doubt that it even happened.

Do we remember Rhys Jones?
We saw him today. As usual while downtown we were standing around aces and spades talking to Mia and Michelle (both who had a weird day). Mia and Michelle were talking about how there was facebook drama in the morning and how Mia kicked out her roommate.
Some time after that we were talking about how Mia can mess some one up if they mess with her. These schemes of hers included taking people hours out of their town in Alberta during winter and making them walk back with no shoes, no jacket and no cell phone as well as hitting people with crowbars.
After wards this guy walks in, unrecognizable to myself until Adrian saw it was Rhys Jones.
He tried to start crap with Mia.
We decided to leave since it had gotten awkward.
Rhys left right after us and hurried up the road; during this time Adrian and I turned around and went back to Aces and Spades to laugh.

I enjoyed today very much.

They've painted over the red wall.
It was sad to watch its demise.

I'm very full from my lunch.

I realized that it has been over a month since I have had a full school week.
This week permitting I don't miss any school will be the first full week I've had. Then next week I'm gone on Tuesday for a week.

I also realized I'm probably not meant to do anything big in the world, and I'm okay with that.

It is a good feeling, sleeping in your own bed.

Peru was life-changing. I missed everyone while I was away.

I had a very good night last night.
I had a dream about Cory and a dream about Laura C.
Cory was dropping out of Stelly's to go on a trip with Laura B. They were going to Paris, yet there were flashes of Cory in Spain with aqueducts in the back ground. Everyone was concerned that he was dropping out.
Laura C. got kicked out of her house for some reason. She had left some sort of cheque in her room while we were all away. The cheque had something to do with the drug store. Rachel came out of Laura's house crying then Laura came out carrying a bunch of things and looking for a place to stay.

My hair smells like summer, its wonderful. It feels like it could be summer (at least in my room). I will take a shower soon with my shampoo that Laurie bought home from her office and I got from Ellery's. I'll smell delicoius.

Today I woke up and eagerly awaited 9 o'clock to roll around so that I could call Adrian and actually get out of the house. My mother left at 9:30 and Adrian got here just after 10 (I do believe). My clothing when I left the house consisted of pajamas and 1/2 my outfit from last night. I ran my grandmother's clothing down to her and then Adrian and I went back to his house. We got his mail. I picked up an peninsula news (for the flyers). We arrived at his house and ate chick'n melts (the broccoli and cheese ones); we ate them with mang thomas sauce. We went back to bed for an hour and a bit, then I spent most of the day laying in his bed reading the flyers from the Penisula News (I found items which I wish to purchase at Canadian Tire and Shoppers Drugmart). I watched an episode of Paranormal State and several episodes of Ouran Host Club. Dylan Hedger went crazy and cut down some trees and made a paranoia fort out side his bedroom window. I then took the most magificent shower, the pressure was perfect, the spray was even, the temperature was wonderful, and the shampoos and soaps smelt so pleasant. I felt refeshed after my shower. I layed in bed for a bit longer then got dressed and had food. Then I hid from Jim. Adrian and I made dinner, he made pasta and I made banana pancakes (not one was burnt). We ate dinner. Munera enjoyed my pancakes. Adrian and I spent time on the computer. Then we took 'my stanky ass' home. I came home and turned on and off several lights. I spent time on the computer. I talked to Ellery about dick's delicious. Talked to Carmen about the state of the economys and populations of Japan, China and (breifly) Korea. Talked to Adrian about buying guns. Talked to Cory and made a face like this one ^_~. I now am tired of blog entry.

A Hefty Smile






(anagrams have always scared me)

I got called pretentious today for the first time to my face.

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current career choices I'm considering:

• Cthulu
• Cephalopod
• Cadaver
  

when ever I have a dream I want to remember but I'm always afraid I'm going to forget it I usually have a dream where I'm telling people about the first dream I had.

Its subconscious review

Today I woke up at 7am and checked my rss feed. There were a couple videos to watch, a post from cake wrecks and a post from Everyday Gyaru. I tried to figure out facebook and then got breakfast which was a grilled cheese and some mushroom soup from a couple days ago. After breakfast I watched some television, then fell asleep on the couch.
I woke up and came back to my room and went on the computer and saw that the sanguine tangerine blog drought had ended (at least for a little while). I was almost alarmed by the ammount of blogs which were posted but it gave me something to do.
Now my mother is in here and I feel so stressed out and I've lost my train of thought. Now my sister is in here yelling.

I was feeling so relaxed now I feel so stressed out.

...fuck

Futile Sh*t

coffee concert was fun.
Up until the point we realized we were locked outside the car, but even that was entertaining.
Up until the point that Becca, Graham and julia left.
then we got fed up.

I couldn't feel anything after being outside for an hour and a half with shorts and a cardigan.

my mom came and got us; she had a fire at home.

Adrian is staying here tonight. I'm sleepy.

It was hard to type this with numb fingers

Dear people with my cell phone number,

I have finally set up my voice mail considering how I've been waiting for important phone calls lately as well as been playing far too much phone tag.

Hope this helps anyone at any point in time,

Jacquie.

I had a lovely day today.
I saved 33¢ by returning Waking Life while Adam was working, after that Adrian and I headed to mayfair where he bought 2 pairs of pants and a vest. After mayfair closed at 5 pm I was pleased that there was quite a bit of light out still and we went to Wal-Mart and got rechargeable batteries. We were going to go home but instead we went to cook street. On the drive to cook street we were following a van with a sticker of a chthulu on the back and Adrian and I had a short debate whether chthulus have wings or not. I was intimidated to go to cook street and walk around, but I got out of the car and we went to starbucks. I got to use my happy boy cup. After getting out drinks and snacks we took a walk around the block and looked at the houses and nice cars.
We went back to the car where there was a love bird in the truck parked next to us, it was adorable, (Adrian says that lovebirds are like cats with wings). We ate our snacks in the car then drove back to suburbia. We went to Ellery's to look for Adrian's ring which we didn't find. Then we drove to my house and ate dinner and watched TV.

I decided today that I want to be a Chthulu or an Octopus when I grow up, though I'm probably just going through another "being an aquatic invertebrate would be so awesome" phase again. Though a Cephalopod would be my preferred animal class opposed to a gastropod.

I wonder what grad transitions people would say if I did that.

I'm in love with the videos shot with the Canon 5D mark II

So, who can tell me a thing or two about Katherine Mansfield's "Miss Brill" ...?

Anyone?

I just ate an utmost satisfying chilli pancake.
I want another but I'm so full.

I posted a look on lookbook.

I don't know if it's good or not.

when ever I go to fisgard market in china town I always end up looking for these wonderful pudding snacks that I had a couple years ago, and I could never find them. Up until yesterday.
Before going to streetfighter a bunch of us were downtown just wasting time and we went to fisgard and I found these while I was looking at hi-chews. I was quite content with my 2 bags of shrimp chips and a packet green apple hi-chews but when I found these I was EXTATIC.

The pakaging is also beyond addorible, I'm actually really aprehensive about eating them becuase I have been anticipating buying and eating these pudding snacks for years now.

I need to scan more stuff in.
This post makes the last scan post off the page.

My shirt smells like chlorine.

so tired agian.

In exactly ten days I will be in Peru.

Out of this country and off of this continent for two weeks.

I'm at home right now.
I came home, put on pajamas, made my bed then crawled in it.

Adrian was here for a while.

I feel like I'm declining.

I want to run away and jump into the sea.
I will build a house of of shells, rocks and sand.
I'll have a garden of coral and have to weed out the sea weeds.
I'll wake up with nautical sunrise and sleep with the fishes.

newts = fucked up

ps. there is a herd of ponies for sale on used victoria.

My hair smells like chlorine.
Asiatic languages make more sense.
Apparently I was 5 ft away from sketch and didn't even know.
I had fun.

things I need to do:

• Take a shower
• Call Adrian
• go to ellery's
  
• kill people

the most deep thoughts which come at 4 in the morning:

The veronicas really look like a gother version of the ikkie twins.

Today has been a nice day. I've spent the last hour cleaning my room. It's a strangely meditative experience. I kept finding old pieces of writing hidden in strange places, and notes from Tanner's. you always end up feeling renewed after it. There was a moment after I finished when I sat on my bed and thought for a moment. The sun had painted the walls golden, and my thoughts felt new and mature. When the new semester came around I kept thinking to myself "all the colours will change now," and I kept my disappointment to myself when they did not. New perspectives and colours come when you least expect it, they come after spending a day reorganizing your life and looking back at it. Death Cab lyrics...

"I think that it's brainless
To assume that making changes
To your window's view
Will give a new perspective"

my goal right now is to take at least one phicture everyday and to post it some where everyday.
Be it on here (which is where they'll probably go) or on my deviantart or even my unused flikr.

Pictures for sad children.

Wonderful.

I love manatees

マーナテエーがだいすきです。

Today the gods tempted me to be physically active.
It was so sunny and wonderful out, and I was all stoked on riding my bike around.
I need to take my cool bike in for a tune up or else ride my pink bike with fenders around opposed to my green bike with fenders and a basket around.

I also learned that biking with 3 layers on is a BAD idea, no matter how cool you look.
Caring a good few extra pounds that are camera stuffs is also not such a good idea.

I will have to train myself to ride my bike more. I am EXTREMELY out of shape seeing how I could not bike to the other side of saanichton were I used to beable to bike from saanichton out to brentwood ride around brentwood and then ride back into saanichton.

Again cory I am sorry for not being able to reach your house. It will be a fun story to tell either on here (when I am cooled back down to a normal body tempurature) or at school tomorrow.

I think I will keep with walking and stationary biking or biking up and down my road until that becomes easy.

It took me almost an hour to ride from my house to the police station in saanichton and back. *fail*

I've decided that I'm going to start writing a book.

It is important, now more than ever, to keep focus on what's important and to really buckle down.

What's important is ensuring that the last five months of high school are the best five out of all forty spent at Stelly's.

"You can't have a real job; you're an artist."

I had a wonderful time this afternoon with Carmen and Adrian.

Also I realized that I probably won't be able to post may lookbook looks unless I get other people to take my picture or I have to get way better at self portrait.

I think I'll work on the latter as well as get the former.

maybe you could use this for your lookbook?
its full sized and unedited

I posted on lookbook, I used the pictures cory took.
My wrist hurts from whisking yesterday. blah.

I enjoyed my day very much.
I made chocolate mousse, I downloaded a bunch of jazz music, I went to dinner at Laura's with Adrian.

I got flowers.

The water mark looks like a dick.

ぼくはコリです。
さいはどおでもいいです。
ぼくわおちゃがすきです。

translated it means (at least I think it does).

I am Cory L.
Age is unimportant.
I like green tea.

ぼくはエドリアンです。ぼくはねおです。ニャニャ

translated it means.

I am Adrian. I am a cat. Meow Meow.

Alex, I am sorry if you don't like this picture but I really like it.
I look adorable, this picture makes me happy.
I look so happy. :)

Flax is a blessing from the gods.

Every morning I put two tablespoons of organic flax into my smoothies.
And every morning I get my Omega-3's and 16% of my daily fibre intake!

Smoothies are only meant to be healthy. Not sugary (*Cough* Orange Julius).

I feel like some day I'm going to end up having my own TLC special.
"I don't know how I got this way," I'll say, because I honestly won't know how.
I fear that I will wake up one day and be 600 pounds.

Both Adrian and Laura were pretty bummed out today.
So after stagecraft and vocal lessons Adrian and I trekked out to Laura's house (and by trekked I mean made the 5 minute drive from school to Laura's house)

We watched some little people on the television then went to play wii music.
Wii music is a soul sucking time passing ball of fun.

" how does it feel to be 18 Adrian?" asked The earth "sort of the same I suppose" I replied. "Oh...Well Happy Birthday Then." It exclaimed.


"Mr Earth How old are you?" asked Adrian "Oh well I'm 4.55 billion years old" it replied "Oh...You look young for your age..." said Adrian.

Hugh Manatee got out of his bed. Unlike the mass majority of the population this was no small feat for Hugh Manatee. To get out of bed Hugh Manatee first had to wake up, which he was always unsure would happen (you see Hugh Manatee had sleep apnea which was caused by his large aquatic mammalian body living out of water).

"Fuck," Hugh Manatee though as he rolled over in his bed (he had not moved since 5:37 this morning when he rolled over after turning off his alarm clock which awoke him at 5:30), it was now 9:30 at night and he had not yet checked his e-mail.

Hugh Manatee at 9:43 left his bedroom. He walked (or what would be considered walking as a manatee) over to his computer that sat in the corner of his living room on a small metal desk he purchased from ikea. Hugh Manatee turned on his computer and then checked his e-mail.

Inbox (2) his computer displayed.

Hugh Manatee decided that he would check his e-mail at work on Monday (two messages were not significant in Hugh Manatee's life).
Hugh Manatee moved from his metal computer desk (which he had purchased from ikea) to his couch (which was not purchased from ikea), the couch was light blue with a large white floral print on it.

"Fuck," Hugh Manatee thought as he flopped over onto the couch. Hugh Manatee turned on his television.
"I should buy something," Hugh Manatee though as he watched the happy people on the television try to sell him some new fangled worthless contraption for 3 easy payments of $19.99.

"Maybe I'm depressed," Hugh Manatee though.

"Maybe you are," said Hugh Manatee's sub-concious.

"Shut up," He shouted yet again into his single residence appartment.

There was no reply.

"Fuck," Hugh Manatee though as he realized that the only company he kept was a company of his own, and even his own company did not want to keep his company.

"Maybe I am depressed," Hugh Manatee said (The use of I am opposed to I'm signified a more of a statement question rather than a real question), there was still no reply.

As the Television flickered the images of the happy people selling a product they had probably never used before and never intended on buying for 3 easy payments of $19.99, Hugh Manatee layed on his couch.

For a split second Hugh Manatee felt something which could have been identified as real emotion, Hugh Manatee did not know what this feeling was. Hugh Manatee mistook sadness for an itch on his rash (which he aquired from the cubucle at work).

"Fuck," Hugh Manatee though now devoid of emotion as the Television continued to flicker.

I just learned how easy it is to change to writing different languages on my computer.
For example.

わたしはジャッキーです。
わたしは１７さいです。
わたしはねこがだいすきです。ニャニャ〜

エドリアンくんはロリタがだいすきです。

I don't know if that last one is grammatically correct, but what ever, its a joke from last year.

I miss my tablet.
I lent it to Dylan on Tuesday and forgot to get it back.

I need to play and practice with it moar!!! :<

Hugh Manatee woke up. Hugh Manatee rolled over to look at his alarm clock (rolling over was something his large aquatic mammalian body did well out of water), he saw that it was 5:30 in the morning.

"Fuck," he though realizing that today was Saturday. Hugh Manatee was not a fan of Saturdays. Usually people looked forward to Saturdays and all that come with them, the weekend, sleeping in, spending time with family and friends.

"Fuck," though Hugh Manatee again realizing that he was not going to sleep in or spend time with family or friends, all of Hugh Manatee's family still lived in the wild life sanctuary in Miami.
Hugh Manatee was not fond of Miami and as he came to realize his family. During the holiday's Hugh Manatee's mother would write him a letter, each letter was pretty generically written (Hugh Manatee's mother had very little time on her hands and a large amount of people to write letters to). All the letters written by Hugh Manatee's mother read the same.

Dear Hugh, (they started)

Hope that his letter finds you well. The family is doing well, Jonathan (Hugh's younger brother) graduated high school with honours, Cindy (Hugh Manatee's older sister) is living happily down the way with her 3 children and husband. Glen (Hugh Manatee's father) was hit once again by a reckless motor boat , in his old age the wounds took a tad bit longer to heal, but he finds himself in better health than in years.
Write back soon.
Sincerely,
Margaret Manatee (Hugh Manatee's mother)

Enclosed in each letter was a picture of the family all floating together with mangrove roots in the background.

"Fuck," though Hugh Manatee, as he lay awake in the early morning (as he so often did).
"I am not lonely," Hugh Manatee said in his monotone voice, "I am happy," He continued.

"Who are you trying to convince," Nagged his subconcious.

"Shut Up," Hugh Manatee yelled in a Fuck-you-you're-not-even-fucking-real tone into the emptiness of his single resident apartment.

"No," mocked Hugh Manatee's subconscious in a very plain tone.

"Fuck," said Hugh Manatee as he rolled his aquatic mammalian body over once more.

I will not be attending Eileen's birthday party.
I am at Laura's, I am not playing DnD since there is only 1 guest spot in the new campaign and I don't have a character.

I took the photos of Jerry Lucky already. I may edit a few while I'm here, probably not though...

I feel depressed again.

http://twitter.com/hughmanatee

I had to fix the printer in the art room several times in the last little while, hence I have not gotten any work which I was hoping to get done, done.

I am also listening to Psyclon Nine. I am enjoying it.
Some man who seems to be flamboyant just hopped up the stairs and stood as if he used to be in dance, he was wearing a dark green pullover v-neck sweater, a plaid shirt underneath that and khaki coloured pants.

"

I don't know, kids.
I think I'm in love.
Like, actually.
Not like it was before where just being together is this huge dramatic thing, but the kind of love where I can go over to his place and just chill and sit and watch movies and laugh at eachother and then go and make love until it's morning and then fall asleep saying things like "sweet dreams" and feeling him kiss the nape of my neck.

It's like, I've never had someone before where we go to bed laughing and wake up smiling, where I can just sit and look into their eyes and not think about anything but just being...happy.

If love is a stormy sea, then it's not love. Maybe I've just found a safe harbor from the world.
And maybe there was never anyone like him, ever.

"


Reading this made me feel all happy inside.

I don't know what to do about school right now.
I sent off an email to Emily Carr asking what courses count for science 12, social studies 12 and Language arts 12.

I have to drop physics, it has sent me home 2 days in a row crying. I didn't bother to bring my physics homework home today because I knew I would not do it.

The fact that I can't do physics anymore or semi-complex math saddens me greatly.
It makes me feel stupid and useless.

I'm starting on my physics homework.

Today was terrible. I felt anxious and depressed almost the whole day.
Tanners and Trina helped, but now I'm back at home. I don't want to talk to anyone here.

Alex by the time you read this you'll probably be mostly recovered (except maybe a hang-over) because I'm sure that Katie Dahl and everyone else has taken care of you.

Here are some pictures from the party and from Tanners, none are post processed and there a few more if you want to see more let me know. Enjoy.